I know it's a little late in the month to post something about resolutions or goals for the year. Other bloggers posted theirs closer to the beginning of the year and are working their way through their goals. Well, good for them :P
With everything going on in my life recently, I found myself being apprehensive about the idea of writing out resolutions or goals. I won't lie, it's taken me until today to actually figure out what I want out of this year. It's not a resolution; it's not a checklist of things; it's simpler than that. All I want in 2020 is to be happy.
The thing is, that seems to be easier said than done. My mind overcomplicates things. It plays tricks on me. And I fall prey to all the negativity. But it's 2020. This year will be different. For my mental health, I need this year to be different. But...what does this "happiness" look like? What does it mean to be truly happy? And, a scarier question, have I ever really been truly happy?
This is meant to be a sad, depressing post, I promise. But, I do have to take an inventory of my life and what has brought me happiness and joy over the years and what has simply brought me down.
So...what do I want my happiness to look like? Let's see...I want:
- To be able to go to sleep without worrying about if I've made other people happy that day;
- To feel at peace with who I am as a person (the good, the bad, and the unchangeable);
- To be comfortable in my skin;
- To give pieces of myself only to people who deserve them;
- To spend time with those who mean the most to me;
- To spend more time with my dogs and just cuddle up every second I can with them;
- To embrace change instead of approach it with fear;
- To stop comparing myself to others and just be OK with who I am;
- To build on my meaningful relationships and start new ones;
- To be OK with being sad when I'm sad, frustrated when I'm frustrated...to be OK with how I'm feeling in that moment instead of feeling guilty for it.
Will all of this happen in 2020? Nope. And I would be ridiculous to think I could make find happiness and solitude in these things only in 12 months. But you know what? I'm going to try. Each day will bring me one step closer to feeling happy, feeling at ease. Feeling at peace with who I am, what I want, and what awaits me. And I'm beyond thrilled with that idea!
I don't know what 2020 will hold for me, but as long as I'm taking steps to become truly happy with who I am and the life I live, then it will be a fabulous year!
What about you? Are you a resolutions person? Do you have goals for 2020? Share them in the comments section :)
Until next time...